cant reali stand...forcing to stand

ANTS....ICEMAN....ANTS is loved...ICEMAN is loved....Ant love Iceman...Iceman love Ant....dey r so sweet....y am i not happy??Y i stil feel uneasy??Tis is not jealousy....i tink...i guess...n i hope....haix....another day in sch...cher sick...nvr come...new cher take over....i late 4 4min onli...but he put mi late....other cher wont lik tht de...he dun lik...pick on mi when i not in mood...ask mi question...ask mi to read...ask mi to write on board...even ask mi to stop eating.....!!!!!wat the hell!!tis is poly....u can eat...drink....do wateva u lik....as long as u do ur presentation....haix....stil regret wat happen in the past...so close to her...so happy with her...spolit our relationship by my own hands...y did i stop sms her at a period of time...??y did i stop talking to her at a period of time???y did i give others a chances to snatch her away frm mi....??2MORO suppose to mi 9mths....haix...i hope she nvr c tis post...hope she nvr view my blog jus 4 2day....i felt veri emotional today....haix...such a bad begining of a day....meeting her later...dunno wat to do...dunno wat should not do....haix...meeting her with th status of "best Fren"....hmmmm....haix....end here ba...so long hav pass...should hav already gotten past with tis relationship....jus putting aside some hope for patching....there wil always be tis hope...tis hope will not be dashed....nvr....haha...feeling much better aft typing everythin out....anyway...end by saying.....May everyone be well n happy...esp myself...n includin her....